Buddy Writes

There is a deep amount of hatred in me. I can clearly sense it. I am ashamed of myself. I see how badly I have drowned into a deep pit hole of ego, jealousy, loop of expectations......................... These are the lines I have written exactly 3 months ago and I stopped the blog. Time is just passing by and I am stuck in a loop because I am unable to recognize or remember what I have been doing over the past few months. Is it because I don't like those moments or is it something else? Have I fallen into the trap of correcting people or correcting myself extremely.  I was going through an extreme circle of emotions, especially dominated by negative one. My brain is sending me signals, telling me that it's enough....you are done, there's nothing else you can do, you are not capable of doing multiple things or even if you think of doing so, you will badly fail at it. I had always slept for lesser hours, compared to what I sleep today. Have I lost the spark in me? I am unabl...